Personal journal, feel free to ignore.
*loud sigh* Okay, here we go...
So when 2015 began, I promised myself it would be much, much better than 2014.
For me, last year was incredibly depressing and counterproductive. My job was causing me to be depressed so I quit, but then being unemployed made me depressed, so I got another job which made me depressed again after awhile? I dunno, maybe I'm just depressed over all. I had a lot of other personal issues going on too, a lot of which interfered with making art.
It's only January 23rd and a LOT of shit has gone down already. The first week was exciting because I was actually looking forward to going back to work after the holidays, and a girl I used to go to school with was starting there. By the second week, I had a bit of a....medical...hiccup..that started to make me a bit nervous. I was dealing with anxiety at work as my new coworker was catching on 10x faster than I had when I started, and I was stressed that my employers would realize how much I suck and fire me I guess??? On top of that I had this other anxiety over the...medical...issue as it could potentially change my life entirely. To the point where I'd have to quit my job. I had tried to..diagnose...myself on four separate occasions, all of which didn't give me any answers and stressed me out more. Because of all this stress, my relationships with the people around me have gotten very rocky... And sadly, it managed to cloud up what should have been a lovely weekend away for my boyfriend and I for our three year anniversary.
This week I finally fessed up to my mom about what was going on, and she managed to get me a doctors appointment on Tuesday to find out if my guess was correct. Thankfully, it was not. The doctor said that I may possibly have hypothyroidism or...cysts. Also during the week, a girl I went to school with in sixth to eighth grade contacted me on Facebook to see if I could help her with isolating the text from a promotional graphic for her online business. I couldn't do it as the picture was too small, but I managed to find the exact text online and send her a new one! She was very grateful and actually offered me a position to design t-shirts for the shop on her business! It's so very exciting! I also called into the local college to (finally) book an appointment with someone who could walk me through the application process. Luckily for me, the career councilor had recently retired and taken up a position at the college doing just that! So that took a bit of the pressure off of me knowing someone I'd already met would be helping me.
That leads me to today. Today I went to the hospital bright and early to get blood tests (I've never gotten blood taken before, my arm still feels really weird) to find out what's the cause of my ....medical issue... and then I went to the college to go through with the application process. I'm accepted to the college itself already, but that acceptance doesn't count until the University of Saskatchewan also accepts my application (the college is just kind of a smaller branch of the university, so you have to apply to both), which they won't do unless my transcript is mailed to them. I've sent away some money to pay for the application as well as for my transcripts to be sent to the university, and I'm really hoping to hear back from them beeeeeefore the end of January? Idk. Basically if I get accepted, then I'll go back to the college to apply for student loans and register for my classes! (I'm only taking three classes though).
So yeah! A few bad things have happened, but they've been resolved pretty well with the universe throwing me a few goodies too to make up for the TORTUROUS THREE WEEKS OF STRESS, so that's always good!
I'm not sure how often I'll be posting art now. I should really start working on expanding my skills for university, as well as the t-shirt designs. Any comments, critiques, and notes are very welcome it puts a big smile on my face to see someone cares enough to spend a little time to send me a message. Thanks y'all
Also! A small thank you to everyone who made me gift art and wished me a happy birthday in November! I'll be posting a proper thank you journal for that in the future!
Did I mention I've been struggling with my gender identity a bit? No? Okay good.